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Do you find porn degrading? Is there a limit for which porn is acceptable? For example, would you think less of a partner who had a few Maxims as opposed to a lovingly tended humongous video and magazine library? What's the big deal about looking at porn, anyways?

I think any porn where the people are in it unwillingly (child porn, rape) is WRONG. If it's all consensual or acting, hey, anything goes. I've never had a partner who was into porn, the only way I'd get offended by it is if he wanted to spend more time with the porn collection than me. I seriously don't know what is the big deal. Yeah, there's a little too much porn spam in my inbox and it seems like you can't click anywhere without stumbling on a porn site, but really, it's just sex. And if you have issues with seeing people in sexual acts, well...stop being so repressed already!

..and seriously, if I had a problem with porn, you wouldn't find my picture here....

I :hearts Lik-M-Aid.

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...then you have some bubble gum!

Spotted over at Bloganon...

Yeah, I pick my nose, Göran caught me at it the other day when I forgot the webcam was on. :covereyes At least I don't eat them magic nose goblins.

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Found this over at Kristine's...

Something so cool I had to blog about it right away! It's a Flash font browser that detects the fonts you have installed on your computer for previewing. :shocked

TOO FUCKING COOL.

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Now that it's 99.9% official that Patrick Roy is retiring, the only question left to ask is...

will he :cry during the press conference today or not?

update: guess he managed to hold the water.

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I had a Thai Massage (Thai Yoga) yesterday, and oh, it was divine. :pleased

It's different from your typical (Swedish) massage treatment in that the therapist massages your muscles and puts you into yoga postures in order to stretch them further. It's like doing an intense, ideal yoga class, where you do all the poses perfectly.

My stomach started growling uncontrollably in the middle of the treatment even though I had just had a large breakfast, and the therapist said it was because of my organs starting to clear out and relax.

I do feel very relaxed still, over 24 hours after the treatment. At the same time, I feel energized. And I'm not sore like I'd be after the deep tissue prodding of a Swedish massage. Do you like feeling like you're floating on clouds?

Obviously, I give Thai Massage :spork :spork :spork :spork :spork/5

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By far and away the most classless and despicable character on the most annoying team in professional sports, Clemens gets a nasty asskicking for the latest bad karma garnered by using a glove with a patch that read "300" on it, before winning the damn game. Hey, what goes around... :angryrazz

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• Reports of my demise have been greatly exaggerated (how sweet of Babs and Bea to worry about lil ol' me)

I IM'ed Babs from an internet café in downtown TO at 1am Sunday morning and then I had to leave. What happened is to make a long story short, I had a huge fight with the parentals about going out, and by the time I got downtown, my friends had gone out without me, and I needed somewhere to send an email to Dan's pager and tell him to call me on my cell. (For once, portable technology saved my ass) The café was about to close so the owners said, send your email and please fuck off, which is why I had to be short with Babs.

After spending the night at the Geekhaus, I went to church and left on a short trip up to a really nice hotel up North in Muskoka, which included a Thai Massage at the spa, yum yum! :drool

The official report will come later, right now, enjoy some pictures from the trip!

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How important is it for you to have an orgasm? Have you ever faked an orgasm? Describe one 'move' that will get you off every time.

It's not very important for me to have an orgasm, I'd rather have fun. Hell, I don't even O every time I masturbate. Yes, I have faked orgasms. What else can you do when you're with a 10 second wonder? Licks and kisses to that spot on the back of my neck..will get me very close to the Big O every time!

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I can't express in words how much I despise weddings.

But I wish I was at one today. About a year ago, the bride (who I was very good friends with in high school) invited me to hers. Out of the blue. Via e-mail. This in itself is OK.

There's a reason why I hadn't spoken to this skank for years. She went out with my bf, while he and I were still going out! It doesn't matter that said bf was that despicable asshat, the point is, friends don't date friends' boyfriends. The only reason this bitch invited me is to rub her happiness into my single and bitter face. I sent her fiancé my complete and sincere condolences to be saddled with a fuckbat like her.

Knowing her, it would be this extremely expensive affair, with all the bells and whistles money can buy, and then some. Undoubtedly, she'd be a Bridezilla, nerotically bullying everyone to ensure a perfect day.

In hindsight, (which is always 20/20, of course) I would have loved to crash her wedding, wearing head to toe fetish gear, with a hot badass guy to keep me company and to give a blowjob to in the middle of the ceremony, and some rockin' tunes to blast at the reception.

Too late for that now. Feh.

(this entry powered by Smirnoff Ice Triple Black)

...and this entry has nothing to do with the fuerthlinda, to whom congratulations are in order...

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Ugggh, he's a dumbass...

[stolen from Soul's LJ]

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Ever since Newsweek posted this photo of a split tongue to illustrate the proposed ban of tongue splitting in Illinois, the backlash has been wide-spread.

While I'm not interested in heavy mods for myself, I fully support anyone who wants them for themselves. The government has no right to dictate what a person does to their own body. I also have a problem with closed-minded attitudes regarding mods, especially when society accepts mods such as cosmetic surgery and bodybuilding. There is much material written on this subject, I highly suggest a person educate themselves on the topic before making snap judgements on the topic.

I do not consider myself an authority on the subject of heavy mods by any means. Here are links to some people who are, and are far more eloquent than I.

The [Modified] Body Politic by Erik Sprague, aka The Lizardman
Publisher's Ring by Shannon Larratt (founder of BME, who also has a split tongue, and someone I'm proud to have met in real life)

update: I called about a free 10 day esthetics course at Carol Baker Visage, which includes "training" on the usage of piercing guns. I told them I was no longer interested for ethical reasons. The woman actually tried to argue with me but from their policies of covering up all tattoos and piercings, it is obvious that the company is anti-bod mod and I have no desire to work for them. The end.

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Oh my fucking gawd, I've actually been to 2 movies so far this year...1 over my quota.

If you liked the first movie because of the universal themes that it presented, you'll like Reloaded, it's the same way, only there's even more to ponder.

Do we have free will?
Does man control the machines, or do they control us?

Random thoughts:

• There could be waaaaaaaay fewer fight scenes. That slo-mo kung-fu thing is totally overused.

• The secret passage way is obviously made of very cheap particle board.

• The Oracle's caretaker is Chinese, and he's playing a Japanese guy (you can tell from the accent)

• I really enjoyed the small humourous moments throughout.

I give it :spork :spork :spork :spork/5

Pictures from yesterday.

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Going out to the movies with my friends this afternoon and my dad wants to drive me. I'm almost 25 years old, and own my own car, for fuck's sake!! I really don't need a chauffeur anymore! :furious

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The May Two-Four Queen says go to the cottage, relax, and drink gratuitous amounts of beer.

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At what age did you lose your virginity? Do you think virginity is overrated? Was sex what you expected it to be, or were you (un)pleasantly surprised? Would you have liked to wait longer to have sex?

I was 19 (January 1998). I think virginity is overrated, because it all boils down to this: it shouldn't be a life-altering experience, it's just another thing that you have or haven't done, like driving a car or travelling to Europe. I always expected sex (the first time, at least) to be this big romantic thing...I ended up having a one night stand. I think I wouldn't have been mature enough to handle sex at an earlier age and I definitely am too horny of a girl to have waited longer. :wink

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At what hour is it considered to be too early to be drinking? I bought some Smirnoff Ice Triple Black and didn't want to wait to try it. I'm halfway through a bottle. And I'm eating Miss Vickie's chips doused liberally with Mr. Goudas pepper sauce, so I'm plenty thirsty.

Bottomth up! :wodka

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• Passed by this cathedral. The weather was horribly rainy and gray today, so it looked so mysterious and beautiful wreathed in fog and clouds. It sits high on a hill and totally dominates everything else nearby. Must explore someday. It's hard to believe there's a building like that in Steel City.

• I got to McMaster about an hour before Paul, it gave me plenty of time to practice piano and study for my teaching exam. He arrives; we practice for a bit.

Paul: it's :hot in here! (small tiny practice room)
Me: because I'm so damn hot, baby! *pelvic thrusts*
Paul: just play the fucking song...not the Fucking Song...umm...

• We pull up to Tim Horton's for lunch.
Paul: Holy crap! It's Frank!

God, I wish I had my camera. The guy sitting in the window having an iced cappucino could have been Frank Barone's evil twin. :rotflmao

• Mom gave me an old map of Hamilton, with the bus station marked. I arrived at the same bus station in the morning, and it was fully intact. So I navigate Paul's dad to the station. And it's a pile of rubble.

Paul's Dad: I seriously doubt the station was demolished since you were there this morning.

Damn old map...

• I bought Spirituals for Solo Singers today, it comes with a CD of piano accompaniments so I can focus on singing. My only complaint is that some of the accompaniments are too slow for my taste, but they will suffice for practice until the next festival in November and I'll get my teacher to play for me. :sing

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I picked up the most recent issue of Jane to read on the bus tomorrow, and there is a makeunder where two bridesmaids were forced by the bride to have their arm tats covered up with Dermablend "to avoid offending someone's grandma."

I'm sorry, but if someone wanted me to cover up my tats for someone else's benefit, the only appearance I'd make at the wedding would be to shit in that narrow minded person's face. During the ceremony.

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Finally, a movie that I actually am willing to spend money at the theatre to see, and no one to see it with. :cry

update: gonna go see it with Dan and anyone else he can round up on Monday afternoon. :smile

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Possible the coolest pedicure ever!

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Previous to trying to lose weight/get fit has there ever been a time in your life when you felt really good about your body?

I've never been happy with my abs, but I was very proud in high school that I was skinnier than a pipe cleaner even though I ate like a pig and size 0's were big on me. Now, I'd rather have some meat on my bones and some curves. :boobies

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I dreamt last night that I was playing Christine in Phantom, but I had no idea of the blocking. Still made it through with rave reviews though. :sing

Then I dreamt that Babs got in big shit for downloading a commercial font from a warez site.

Oh yeah, the next comment is #500, if you care.

update: The font-pirate is now also the 500th commenter. :pleased

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I've made up my mind that if/when I get married, my wedding won't cost more than $1000 or take longer than a week to plan.

This is how it's going to be done. As far as I'm concerned, this is the way weddings should be done!

A funeral has many of the same elements as a wedding, and those are pulled together in 3 days or so. It's a gathering of people for a ceremony and a party afterwards.

Dress - I've never owned a formal dress that cost more than $20. I don't intend to start with the wedding dress. I'll either rip the sleeves off my mom's dress (which cost her $125 30 years ago) or buy something for 90% off from the mall.
cost: $0-20

Invitations - E-mail.
cost: $0

Food - A sushi party plate. My parents had Jello Jigglers and a cold cut platter from the grocery store.
cost: $200

Booze - BYOB. :wodka
cost: $0

Music - mp3's
cost: $0

Flowers, decorations, etc. - Not necessary, especially Imaginary Fiancé and I run off to Gretna Green or Vegas.

I'd prefer to have a church wedding, and that's where the major expenses are: church musicians, and paying the priest.
cost: I'll be generous and say $400

Rings - Wal-Mart and Sears have some nice pieces.
cost: $200

Bridesmaids - I don't really have any close female friends, but if Amanda wants to be the maid of honour, she can wear one of her Hot Topic goth dresses.
cost: $0

TOTAL COST: $820

So there are my plans. All I need now is a guy to marry. Hello? Any volunteers?

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What is your preferred method of birth control, and why?

The pill. I've found a brand that doesn't give terrible side effects. Whenever I can, I prefer not to use condoms. They make sex seem too 'sterile'. I'm all for sharing the bodily fluids, baby! Yeah, I know it's not safe, but it's so much more fun!

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Private Entry

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Friday Five:

1. Would you consider yourself an organized person? Why or why not?
Hell no, but I usually know where stuff is.

2. Do you keep some type of planner, organizer, calendar, etc. with you, and do you use it regularly?
I have a little leather organizer that I write schedules in almost every day.

3. Would you say that your desk is organized right now?
It's not too bad as considering, but nowhere near this.

4. Do you alphabetize CDs, books, and DVDs, or does it not matter?
I organize CD's by genre, then chronologically by the artist.

5. What's the hardest thing you've ever had to organize?
Right now I'm in the midst of putting all my vocal accompanying photocopies in alphabetically in file folders. I have to go through my stack of old photocopies that I've amassed over 18 years of playing piano and file all the vocal music in there too. The pile is several inches high.

Weekly Wrap-Up:

1. How much hair did you have when you were born?
A lot, then it all fell out and grew back. My mom panicked a bit.

2. Share a hair memory from childhood.
I had a bowl cut for most of my early childhood.

3. How do you style your hair now? How much time to do you spend on caring for your hair?
I just comb some leave-in conditioner, scrunch in some mousse, and air dry or blow dry, depending on the weather.

4. Describe your worst hair day? What happened?
I remember when I used to only wash my hair twice a week when I was 12...bad idea.

5. What's the best and worst thing about your hair? Why?
The best thing is that it's nice and long. The worst is that it's not long enough, I'd like it to be elbow length. Also, even a bad trim can send me into a couple months of perpetual bad hair.

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Finally, a story to tell, inspired by Joey's story of Taxi Hell:

Several years ago, when I was a poor university student, we had these flat rate taxis (e.g. a ride from anywhere within Zone A to Zone B would always be $5) I was on the way home when I realized I didn't have the $13 I needed. I managed to wrangle up $11 and told the driver I'd go upstairs to my apartment to get the rest. I stepped out of the cab.

"WHERETHEFUCKDOYOUTHINKYERGOINBITCH?!?!?!?!"

"Excuse me. If it's that important to you to get the money, why don't you take me back downtown where I can turn a trick for the 2 fucking dollars!!!" Of course if he had been nice about it, he'd have gotten the money. I managed to get inside the locked lobby door and pull the door shut behind me before the asshat could come after me. And as Luck would have it, I managed to get his cab number before he drove off too.

"Hello, Cab Company? I'd like to speak to the manager, please..."

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Did you know that May is National Masturbation Month?

Pour some lube, fire up your vibrator, and get wanking! (I did today...twice) :covereyes

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Still a little bit sicky, but I've managed to put up the new layout so far. I haven't managed to make a dent in the dirty laundry pile that's threatening to eat up my closet. Priorities, you know.

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I am striving to use the word asshat more often, due to its proud Swedish and Canadian origins. :canada:sweden

"Asshat is new! Asshat is hip! Asshat is now! We all strive to create a new word for a generation, and this is it, folks! Asshat is something that everyone can come together and celebrate!"

Oh yeah, I am damn sick today. :sick

update:
Zorbs: i am sicky today
Zorbs: I hope I don't have SARS
Methos: why, did you drink to much after getting home??
Zorbs: i didn't drink at all
Zorbs: and i wasn't hungry...i thought it was the damn cake [I had eaten this huge piece of chocolate cake at lunch] but..
Methos: its teh SARS!
Zorbs: i don't even have a fever though
Methos: SARS! SARS! SARS! :)
* Zorbs sneezes on Methos

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Gawd. I have never been so fucking glad it's Friday!

(this is a real letter that I'm giving to the woman today, names changed to protect the guilty, personal asides in italics)

Dear Mrs. Bitchy Voice Teacher,

I feel that I must write to clarify a few things.

First of all, I would like to apologize again for being rude to you. I was not trying to give you attitude, but it appears that you took it as such. It will not happen again in the future, and again, I am sorry. I don't think I should apologize for shit I didn't do but I will anyways!

Secondly, when I first started taking students to accompany, I was asking them to bring me music themselves. This proved to be difficult and that is when I asked you to bring me the music for your students who had not done so already. However, M.D. and B.H. were two of the people who did bring it to me, and therefore, their music was not included in the pile that you brought to M [my piano teacher] for me and did not have any key changes marked on it. In the future, I will be certain to ask you and/or the student to let me know of any key changes.

Lastly, I would like to thank you for the opportunity to accompany your students. I enjoy accompanying very much, and sincerely hope that in the future I will again have the chance to work with your talented students. Despite my mistakes, I see them as a learning experience and a chance to improve my shortcomings. Grovel, grovel, ass kissing noises.

Yours truly,

Zorbs

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Here's a chat transcript of what happened today. Let me know if you want explanations of the technical terms.

Eternal gratitude to Babs and Chris for being great friends and listening to me.

Theme song of the day: Spit It Out (gee I wonder why)

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ICQ History Log For:
Nataly
Started on Fri May 02 00:08:51 2003
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Zorbs 01/05/20 10:46 PM so part of my job i have to play some songs in
different keys

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:46 PM and the kids are supposed to bring me
music...but i stopped asking them because they
weren't bringing it and it was annoying me

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:47 PM so this teacher gave me all the stuff i needed
- minus a few who had already brought me the
music

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:48 PM the music that the students brought themselves
don't have any key changes listed on them

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:49 PM it is really not my job to ask for key changes
because some of the kids are too
young./inexperienced to understand about that.
so the first day i played some stuff in the
wrong key because i didn't know how to work
the (electric) keyboard properly

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:50 PM my teacher set me straight, i apologized to
the teacher. problem solved. although i still
feel bad because if i had played in the proper
key perhaps the student would have placed
better.

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:51 PM i felt bad about playing it wrong, but lesson
learned, i won't do it again.

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:52 PM i'm also not a mind reader - if the music
doesn't have anything written on it re changes
i won't know to make the changes, especially
if the student doesn't tell me anything during
the rehearsal

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:53 PM on tuesday, i sucked as well note wise...off
day

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:54 PM i was upset that they expected me to know all
this but oh well shit happens.

so i thought it was over.

Nataly 01/05/20 10:56 PM thought being the key word, obviously.

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:56 PM today, this teacher reminded me to play
something in the transposed key.

me: sure, no problem, i always play it on the
keyboard
(meaning: i always play it on the keyboard, i
KNOW it's in a different key, end of story)
teacher: don't give me that attitude

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:57 PM as i said, that was just an honest comment,
NOT meant to be bitchy or sarcastic.

Nataly 01/05/20 10:58 PM I think she was probably having an off day
too! that's an honest comment!

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:58 PM if i had said, "yeah YEAH I KNOW" in a very
pissed off tone, I'd consider that to be
bitchy and a bad attitude.

Nataly 01/05/20 10:59 PM I agree!

Zorbs 01/05/20 10:59 PM so i was understandable very VERY VERY VERY
VERY upset by this

and she said, "oh yeah and your tempos
(speeds) are all messed up too. see thaty ou
don't do it again"

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:01 PM this is highly insulting, considering paul
(whose u of toronto audition i played for
yesterday) said that i'm the ONLY accompanist
he's ever had who plays things at the tempo
that he wants them.

Nataly 01/05/20 11:01 PM I know tempos! that's probably the only thing
I remember about music class. that and
fortissimo, and pianissimo.

now I really think she was the one being the
bitch. that was quite uncalled for.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:02 PM i am very hard on myself for these things,
there is nothing i want more for these kids to
do well. when people are accusing me of doing
shit that isn't my fault, i am not fucking
happy!

Nataly 01/05/20 11:03 PM I'd be pretty pissed too.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:03 PM i didn't even get a chance to tell her that i
didn't do one of the key changes because it
wasn't on the music that the student gave me.
and like i said, NO ONE TOLD ME SO WHAT THE
FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

Nataly 01/05/20 11:04 PM after the festival, I think I'd talk to her
about that. but that's just me. show her the
sheet. tell her this is what you had for this
kids music and that it had no key changes. you
had no way of knowing.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:04 PM but at the point i thought it was pointless to
argue, she'd probably say, "oh i told you on
the phone don't you remember?"

I'm SURE she never told me on the phone, i'd
have remembered it.
but i didn't say anything because i'd come
across sounding defensive, and something truly
bitchy might slip out.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:05 PM I want to. But I'll sound defensive I think.

Nataly 01/05/20 11:05 PM don't get me started on the whole 'defensive'
thing.

Nataly 01/05/20 11:05 PM maybe not after you've cooled off a bit.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:06 PM she seems to have set her mind against me. I
think it might be too late to say anything.

Nataly 01/05/20 11:06 PM ah. then she's the bitch.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:07 PM i know that. but these people have a way of
making everything be the other person's fault.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:07 PM after i finished my classes for the morning, i
went home and cried.

Nataly 01/05/20 11:07 PM :(
I would probably have cried there.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:08 PM i almost did on tuesday.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:08 PM anyways, at home i decided not to talk to this
bitch because it would be fruitless.

but my piano teacher is good friends with her,
i had to make *someone* see my side

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:09 PM so after lunch i found my piano teacher and
told her the same shit and i bawled again

Nataly 01/05/20 11:10 PM what did your teacher say?

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:11 PM she said i was doing fine

Nataly 01/05/20 11:12 PM so she would back you up, you think?

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:12 PM yes.

she said, I've known you for more than 10
years and as a fellow pianist, i say you're
doing fine.

Nataly 01/05/20 11:13 PM good.!

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:15 PM anyways....so i had my solo tonight

Nataly 01/05/20 11:15 PM how did that go?
is this voice or piano?

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:15 PM for a person with not a lot of self confidence
to begin with...

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:15 PM piano...it went BAD.

Nataly 01/05/20 11:15 PM :(

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:16 PM so i've been sort of meaning to do this exam.
it's the only one i have left. i attempted it
back in 1997 and failed. but i've had nagging
self doubts since then. i don't have problems
with nervousness while accompanying

Nataly 01/05/20 11:17 PM but solo is MUCH different.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:17 PM totally, completely.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:18 PM chris is going to call me.

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:19 PM the gist of it being, i want to quit piano and
not try for thsi exam, it's futile.

Nataly 01/05/20 11:19 PM oh! no! you can't do that! Chris will tell
you!! he calling right now?

Zorbs 01/05/20 11:19 PM yes

Zorbs 02/05/20 12:01 AM still on the phone

Nataly 02/05/20 12:03 AM he making you feel any better?

Zorbs 02/05/20 12:04 AM fuck yes

Nataly 02/05/20 12:05 AM good!!! :)
so you're still going to take the exam?

I'm due to go to church. I'll say a prayer for
you if you do O-)

Zorbs 02/05/20 12:05 AM no...i am NOT doing the exam.

Zorbs 02/05/20 12:05 AM the solo made it painfully clear

Nataly 02/05/20 12:06 AM ok :)

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I didn't think this week could get any more hellish and shitty than Tuesday, but it did. My eyes hurt from crying. My heart hurts. My mind hurts. Everything hurts. I'm so messed up I can't think anymore.

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