Thoughts
I'm always lonely these days, searching vainly for something that I want but can never have. Always on the verge of tears or in tears, although fifty thousand tears will not help wash away the pain that fills me constantly. It's a beautiful day outside today and all I can think of is what has gone wrong in my life...everything...
What have I done to deserve this?
I want to die, I really do. Just vanish. No one cares anyways. Oh, I know there's lots of people out there who think they care about me, and maybe they do in their own small way, but that is not what I want. I want someone who will make me the centre of their life. Otherwise, it's nothing. I don't need to be a blotch on the side of someone else's wonderful life.